FAREWELL

It's been nearly 2 years since I last wrote here. 2 years since I felt I needed to

I am not who I used to be,
I am no longer dependant on this blog

 

A lot has changed, due to my physical state I no longer work with horses. Luckily for me, a year ago today I was lucky enough to but my own horse. We have been through ups and downs but we are currently out competing and climbing through the levels.

I work a Monday-Friday, 9-5 office job. I do engineering work and translation work. I'm happy.

My life has pieced together and everything is how it should be.                                                                                                          
Somehow, I made it through everything. Things I wrote here and things I didn't.

I met someone I considered to be my best friend for about 3 and a half years here. Unfortunately as time goes and people grow up, we have grown apart.

Life here has changed me. Over the last year in particular I have grown up a lot. I am 19 this month and am coping ok (just about) with this "adulting" stuff.

Early this year I learned an important life lesson. A person stepped into my life that threatened my health, my relationship and my whole state of mind. I had a mild relapse into alcoholism and self-harm which although left some of the fiercest scars yet, I got through and climbed up. I know better now.                                                                                                                                 This no longer comes naturally. I struggle to find a flow to carry on writing.

This blog was my go to every morning and every evening. It was my escape from cruel reality and I had somewhere to be myself. I never fit in anywhere apart from here. But I do now. I have a happy relationship, my own finances and my own goals. I don't feel the need to come to this place every night to write about my day and cry myself to sleep. I don't need this anymore. I will never delete this blog. I will never erase such a huge part of my life and sanity. But it is very unlikely I will post here again.                                                                                                                                                                           I come back to this place sometimes, to read back on things I wrote. Things I felt. I am glad I got to where I am today. I am proud of myself for getting through it all and finally being happy.    
                                                                                              
 I achieved things I never thought I could. My dream of owning a horse and competing has come true. I worked insanely hard for it and I am so very proud of myself for what I have achieved. To date we have jumped 1.10M and have achieved a 64% in our first dressage (somehow! it was a mess!)
Through it all, I worked hard to better myself and to bring this horse to the level he is at today. I'm happy. All in all, this post was a mess. As I said it isn't very natural for me to write here anymore. 
I can't thank you all enough for everything. From arguments, to friendships, to fights and to everything else. The people here helped me so, so much and this site itself saved my life for the last 7 or so years. 

 

Thank you for coming on this journey with me, I hope those of you who are still around as well as those who aren't will get to see this post. I wish you all the best!  

Thank you ever so much and good luck on your own journeys,
the one and only, 
Ghost Dog

It's been nearly 2 years since I last wrote here. 2 years since I felt I needed to

I am not who I used to be,
I am no longer dependant on this blog

 

A lot has changed, due to my physical state I no longer work with horses. Luckily for me, a year ago today I was lucky enough to but my own horse. We have been through ups and downs but we are currently out competing and climbing through the levels.

I work a Monday-Friday, 9-5 office job. I do engineering work and translation work. I'm happy.

My life has pieced together and everything is how it should be.                                                                                                          
Somehow, I made it through everything. Things I wrote here and things I didn't.

I met someone I considered to be my best friend for about 3 and a half years here. Unfortunately as time goes and people grow up, we have grown apart.

Life here has changed me. Over the last year in particular I have grown up a lot. I am 19 this month and am coping ok (just about) with this "adulting" stuff.

Early this year I learned an important life lesson. A person stepped into my life that threatened my health, my relationship and my whole state of mind. I had a mild relapse into alcoholism and self-harm which although left some of the fiercest scars yet, I got through and climbed up. I know better now.                                                                                                                                 This no longer comes naturally. I struggle to find a flow to carry on writing.

This blog was my go to every morning and every evening. It was my escape from cruel reality and I had somewhere to be myself. I never fit in anywhere apart from here. But I do now. I have a happy relationship, my own finances and my own goals. I don't feel the need to come to this place every night to write about my day and cry myself to sleep. I don't need this anymore. I will never delete this blog. I will never erase such a huge part of my life and sanity. But it is very unlikely I will post here again.                                                                                                                                                                           I come back to this place sometimes, to read back on things I wrote. Things I felt. I am glad I got to where I am today. I am proud of myself for getting through it all and finally being happy.    
                                                                                              
 I achieved things I never thought I could. My dream of owning a horse and competing has come true. I worked insanely hard for it and I am so very proud of myself for what I have achieved. To date we have jumped 1.10M and have achieved a 64% in our first dressage (somehow! it was a mess!)
Through it all, I worked hard to better myself and to bring this horse to the level he is at today. I'm happy. All in all, this post was a mess. As I said it isn't very natural for me to write here anymore. 
I can't thank you all enough for everything. From arguments, to friendships, to fights and to everything else. The people here helped me so, so much and this site itself saved my life for the last 7 or so years. 

 

Thank you for coming on this journey with me, I hope those of you who are still around as well as those who aren't will get to see this post. I wish you all the best!  

Thank you ever so much and good luck on your own journeys,
the one and only, 
Ghost Dog