im worried, scared and i dont know whats going on..
i tried calling.. there is no answer.
texting? no answer either.
i want to understand whats going on, and i want to do the best i can to help.. if she needs me..
but.. there is no answer,, and im starting to give up.
yes it hasnt been that long yet, and i am the most fucked up person in the world to give up so soon..
but i dont give a fuck.
i feel abandoned, betrayed and alone.
she said shell never leave.
even if her answer to me will be 'i want to be alone' or 'i dont wanna talk right now' ill be glad.
i just want to know that shes still there, and that she still cares.
because i care. thats why im worried.
i dont have much more to write about this so ill just tell you about my day..
i had to wake up half an hour early today because the buses decided to have a delay.. how fun.
after going to sleep at 4am and waking up at 6 i head to school to do ANOTHER test.
thats the second math test this week and theres another one on friday.
the last test started 20 mins late therefore dragged out if the hour it was supposed to be.
how freaking fun.. isnt it?
well.. anyway.. who cares about lessons..
break was... interesting.
nothing too weird happened but.. well..
it was fine i guess.
nothing happened after that.. until lunch.
me, brandon, ethan and alfie (alfieeee!!!!!!!!! *stroke*) were just standing around talking while this 4 faggots decide to start picking on us.
nothing serious happened although brandon and ethan had to hold me back as i was about to fucking stab this fat ass bitch who called me a devil.. )again)
then me and alfie had a nice talk to jasmine and abbie cuz apparently danny likes jasmine..
now theres a list of people who love jasmine.. (XD) , theres liam, reace, n a few more..
it got into detail and into a long story about shoes, chairs, getting stuck (jasmine has a talent to get stuck in EVERYTHING) and.. well thats pretty much it.
at the end of the day we ll met at big top and after convincing ethan to join us instead of taking the bus we started to walk.. the long way.
the long way adds a 30mins walk for each one of us
well, its bonding time.. XD
alfie cut off in the middle because he takes the bus home..
we walked all the way around school and stopped to buy drinks on the way.. cause we can.
i did try to get ran over.. cause i wanted to..but brandon pushed me out of the way about a second before the car hit me..
then we just walked to the bus stop and waited..
and as usual when the bus came i hugged brandon and ethan and.. yay.
i have to take 2 buses to get home, 17 & 33.
its .. 20 mins , if you dont count the waiting..
so i got home at 4;40, school ends at 3;25.
thats pretty much it for what happened today.. and this came out longer that ive expected..
well..
im still worried.. VERY worried.
and i want to know whats wrong..
so.. if ure reading this.. plz.. let me know that ure alright..
its been.. a while..
im worried, scared and i dont know whats going on..
i tried calling.. there is no answer.
texting? no answer either.
i want to understand whats going on, and i want to do the best i can to help.. if she needs me..
but.. there is no answer,, and im starting to give up.
yes it hasnt been that long yet, and i am the most fucked up person in the world to give up so soon..
but i dont give a fuck.
i feel abandoned, betrayed and alone.
she said shell never leave.
even if her answer to me will be 'i want to be alone' or 'i dont wanna talk right now' ill be glad.
i just want to know that shes still there, and that she still cares.
because i care. thats why im worried.
i dont have much more to write about this so ill just tell you about my day..
i had to wake up half an hour early today because the buses decided to have a delay.. how fun.
after going to sleep at 4am and waking up at 6 i head to school to do ANOTHER test.
thats the second math test this week and theres another one on friday.
the last test started 20 mins late therefore dragged out if the hour it was supposed to be.
how freaking fun.. isnt it?
well.. anyway.. who cares about lessons..
break was... interesting.
nothing too weird happened but.. well..
it was fine i guess.
nothing happened after that.. until lunch.
me, brandon, ethan and alfie (alfieeee!!!!!!!!! *stroke*) were just standing around talking while this 4 faggots decide to start picking on us.
nothing serious happened although brandon and ethan had to hold me back as i was about to fucking stab this fat ass bitch who called me a devil.. )again)
then me and alfie had a nice talk to jasmine and abbie cuz apparently danny likes jasmine..
now theres a list of people who love jasmine.. (XD) , theres liam, reace, n a few more..
it got into detail and into a long story about shoes, chairs, getting stuck (jasmine has a talent to get stuck in EVERYTHING) and.. well thats pretty much it.
at the end of the day we ll met at big top and after convincing ethan to join us instead of taking the bus we started to walk.. the long way.
the long way adds a 30mins walk for each one of us
well, its bonding time.. XD
alfie cut off in the middle because he takes the bus home..
we walked all the way around school and stopped to buy drinks on the way.. cause we can.
i did try to get ran over.. cause i wanted to..but brandon pushed me out of the way about a second before the car hit me..
then we just walked to the bus stop and waited..
and as usual when the bus came i hugged brandon and ethan and.. yay.
i have to take 2 buses to get home, 17 & 33.
its .. 20 mins , if you dont count the waiting..
so i got home at 4;40, school ends at 3;25.
thats pretty much it for what happened today.. and this came out longer that ive expected..
well..
im still worried.. VERY worried.
and i want to know whats wrong..
so.. if ure reading this.. plz.. let me know that ure alright..