My Monologue

Well, there you go. I fucked up once again. When don't I fuck up?
I had one simple mission and I got caught out by my simplest mistakes.
I can't lie and say I didn’t know what I was doing was wrong.  It was wrong from the very beginning, this whole thing was a huge mistake I shouldn’t have gotten myself involved in.
I thought I was cautious, powerful… strong.  But I ain't any of those.
I mean, look at yourself Sciber! You're weak. You have no power. This whole thing is conclusive to your failure. You got stuck in deep shit. You fucked up.
you can't deny  it was your fault from the beginning. I mean, you knew how dangerous this whole situation was but you still engaged in it. You can't say you didn’t mean for this to happen. You enjoyed it for god's sake!  You enjoyed every one of those miserable screams and you did absolutely NOTHING.
you aren’t strong… you're weak and helpless.
you did this yourself Sciber, you can't blame anyone else anymore.
you fucked yourself up so damn much.
and now… youre here. Alone.
stuck in this tiny, musty, terrible cell.
you brought this upon yourself.

Now, you may ask, "Sciber, how on earth did you manage to get yourself in this horrifying situation?"
well… allow me to explain.
if it wasn't for my unscrupulous , deceptive brother, I wouldn’t even think of doing anything as horrible as I did. Well, I would, but that has nothing to do with it.
what happen shall stay between me and him, our past mistakes dissolved in our minds.
I may forgive. But I will never forget.
he did this. He caused this.
and once again im locked up in a small, disgusting cell.

Nothing to see, nothing to see. Just a girl who's simply locked up with no escape.
Just a girl who has, in fact, just lost all sense of sanity she had left.
you were crazy from the start weren't you now, Sciber?
you can't blame your brother, you enjoyed it just as much as he did. He may have caught you out but well, it was your own idea in the end. And you enjoyed every second of it.
don't lie, little girl. You LOVED it. You truly and wonderfully loved it.
from the moment you arrived, to the moment you threw that burning hell towards the building.
You caused a hell on earth, Sciber, and it was just what you wanted to see

Don't lie, little girl. You are afraid. Scared out of your little, sickly insane mind.
and I know exactly what scares you most. It's HER, isn’t it.

of course it's her, Sciber. You are afraid of losing the only person who ever cared for you. The only person who hadn’t mindlessly used you and hurt you.
she gave you a warning.  She told you you had one last chance. And you went and fucked yourself up.
now… you have nothing left.
outside this cell awaits a world of nothing. You are left alone, you'll cry out. But no reply would sound.
you linger here as much as you can knowing what awaits out there. Where you are alone, upset, and scared.
there is no way out of what you got yourself stuck within.
theres nothing left of you, Sciber. You may look like a monster. But you are nothing.
you have nothing. And you will never…. Ever…. Have anything more than that. 

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