it looks like you've moved on but i just can't bring my self to do the same.
very slowly i start to drift away from what we've been through.
i feel less and less attached to you and im pushing your memory out of my life.
this is hard, very hard.
you've been there for me through the worst, the best and the hardest times.
you were everything for me.
my top priority.
but its gone.
i never thought it could happen this way but... it's over.
i read out old conversations through out. inside out. i try to figure everything out.
we were so close but we lost it.
because of a simple misunderstanding.
it hurts. it burns.
you ignore me now. completely.
im just asking myself "where are the times it was all great.? where did they go? why did it end?"
my fault? yours?
i dont know.
but those 2 years were a lot. they meant a lot.
i was meant to come visit my cousins who live near you this year. i wanted to offer to come and see you but then.. i remembered.. we dont talk anymore. you dont care anymore.
i tries to fix it but i cant. i did my best but nothing is working.
it depresses me but at some point... i will have to say goodbye.
this is this point.
it really is difficult to say.
i dont want it to be over but i have no choice.
i can't move on.
somewhere within i wish you feel the same and want it all to just be back to the way it was.
we both have new lives, new friends, new goals.
we grew up together. we helped eachother find ourselves.
but our new selves dont get along.
it took us long to become friends.
really long.
and we lost it because of one, stupid, worthless and not needed mistake.
i asked you if you want to stay friends and you said yes.
but it doesnt seem it.
it never seemed it.
i loved you.
but i lost you.
all i want to say is...
i miss you.
but im sorry. i cant wait any longer for this.
it's time for goodbye.
i dont want it to be. but i guess it is.
it makes me upset to think about this and honestly i wish you feel the same.
i want it back but i dont know how to get it.
so just one more time.
i'm sorry.
i made a terrible mistake and i know what i did wrong. i understand that.
it was a childish moment and i wasnt thinking straight.
i was an idiot and im sorry.
i want you to forgive me.
i want the old times back.
;){kind=link}