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The water dripping from the insomniac moon can't go back.
During this time I can just laugh about how pretty beautiful things are.
It all seems so fake...
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I Never Thought I'd Be Happy
10/07/2017 20:10
Ghost Dog
I never thought I'd be happy. I was sure I'll spend my life wasting away in my own suffering. I never thought I'd find a place, somewhere I fit into, somewhere I feel safe and happy. Like it's my own little heaven. But I found it. And I can't believe this is real. I've graduated college, I decided not to stay for the second year because I hated it there. I made a fantastic new best friend, Jamie, and we spent the last week of college on campus, sharing a little room. It was hilarious, it was fun. But I still wasn't 100% happy. A while ago, when I decided I don't want to stay in college for the second year, I started looking for a place to become an apprentice. Getting paid while getting a qualification? YES PLEASE. I was going to do it at the yard near my house, but I knew I wouldn't be happy there and I'm so glad that didn't work out. But I did find a place, and I gave them a ring and asked about it. She wanted to meet me, so I agreed. We met, and I assume she liked me, because she wanted me to come do a trial ASAP. and I did. And I fell in love with the most amazing horse I've ever met. Indie. I loved the place, it was hard work, yes, but I loved it. A few weeks later I got the email that said they loved me and want me to start there as an apprentice. And on Saturday I did. And I love it so, so much. It is my safe place, where I met new friends, where I rode new horses. I'm in love. And I want to be the lucky girl to own Indie one day. Because from the moment I rode her, the moment I saw her, I knew she must be mine. 3>
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That's What They All Say
30/10/2016 01:37
Ghost Dog

They said she couldn't get better. They told her upfront that it was the end, and there wasn't anything anyone could do. They were giving up and moving on. Although, she hung on; trying every day to win a battle against an opponent much stronger. And with every heartbeat it hurt more. And every breath was getting weaker. She was fighting her fears themselves and no one was there to help her. She was fighting and fighting, and she couldn't stop; for if she did, she would've lost.

With every breath she took her lungs sunk with the heaviness of tears. She was drowning in a sense of betrayal and abandonment. She saw them come and leave the room with more medication, but they never said a word. She was like an animal getting fed, a once loved puppy being thrown out and abandoned as an old dog, weak and sore. No one had the time for her and no one seemed to care. She was alone, and she was scared. 

But nothing can stop this girl. Even through all this, she stayed determined. Determined to win the battle and prove her strength. She took it as it came, and day after day she felt stronger. But no one saw the change. The doctors were corrosive to her cells and she was slowly getting destroyed, inside and out. 

The beast inside her would scream and struggle against its bonds. The physical bonds that sunk so deep into her flesh. So deep that her mind was getting strangled too.

She sought desperately the comfort of others. Her once cold soul was now a sponge observing all the affection she could get. 

But no one was willing to respond to her call. Avoidance of eye contact was their way of telling her they didn't care. And it was slowly sinking in that she had nothing to hold on to.

The medication just barely kept her alive, and her strong opponent was getting stronger as she was heading the opposite way. Although she felt stronger every day, reality was that her body was on the edge. She realized it now but wasn't willing to let go.

She was battling a battle for everyone else - just to prove to them how wrong they were. But were they? There was no longer a sense of comfort in breathing slowly. No longer a sign of strength in her heartbeat, that was now weak and force-less. Her unsteady breathing begun to fade now, to a point where the machines were her only link to life.

It harnessed her in it's cold grasp as she was hanging on to the edge of the cliff, her fingernails digging into the dirt and ripping from her soft flesh. The machines alienated her from reality and she was held in place by a few bloody strips of flesh, stretching the longer she stayed in place. They hurt, She was hurt.

She was burning with a desire to live but her flames were quickly choked by the drugs, overdosing as they slaked. 

It was nearing an end and everyone knew it. And there wasn't anything anyone could do. 

They told her it was the end.

 

"I couldn't prove them wrong" 

She sighed as her eyes locked shut, imprisoning her soul from what's ever left to see. 

Her heart was slowing down and the machines were screaming frantically for someone to come and save her, although to her the noise just sounded like laughter.

The dissonance was painful to listen to, as her heart steadied to a stop. Finally releasing her from all that was bad, allowing her, for once in her life, to finally let go.


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Results Day
25/08/2016 21:48
Ghost Dog

Well, today was the day.
The day I've finally graduated high school! ^-^

Yup, you heard right. I graduated from my school today, and what an eventful day it is!
I couldn't sleep last night, I only got about 2 hours of sleep, and I woke up at 5am, to be greeted by messages from my friends- who also couldn’t sleep!
Well, slowly, the time came.
It was about 8:20 and I started heading towards Alfie's house, as we were going there together. And there we were, in the car with his parents, driving to find out what the rest of my future looks like.

We were some of the first ones there, and my other friend, Adriana, was there waiting for us. We picked up our results and waited; I didn't want to open them without Ethan (The boyfriend). Meanwhile, Alfie opened his results and was headed towards Sixth Form enrolment to choose his subjects. And then, Ethan arrived. And once he did, it was finally time to find out what we got.

We headed to the corner to open our results alone. I took a deep breath and looked at the sheet. It was great!
I had passed everything.
"I got an A in English Literature!" I shout at Adriana. I can't say I felt happy with my results- but I certainly was not disappointed in them.
I only failed one subject, ironically- Hebrew.
It's pretty funny that I managed to fail my own language although I did great in English. 
Well, as I said, I wasn't happy.

Want to know what I got?

Read on!

Information and Creative Tech. (ICT): P2 (equivelant to grade C)

Maths: C
Drama: B
Music: C
Religious Studies (RE): B
Art and Design: C
Computer science: C

English Language: C
English literature:  A
Biblical Hebrew: F
Science A: B
Additional Science: C

 

1A, 3B's, 7C's and 1F!

And with these results…
I'M GOING TO COLLEGE!

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Assignment
28/06/2016 01:51
Ghost Dog

הוא חבש את המסכה שלו וסגר את הדלת מאחוריו בשקט. הוא טיפס על גב סוסו ויצא בדהרה מן המקום, גלימתו הלבנה מיתנופפת מאחוריו. סוסו ניווט במיקצועניות בין גזעי עצים בתוך היער. נהמה קלילה של רוח נישמעה בזמן שהוא רכב במהירות, ולא עצר לרגע.

 

הוא חלף לידה כמשב רוח, רוכב על סוס לבן, היא הספיקה ליקלוט מפניו רק את מסכתו הלבנה ומבגדיו רק את גלימתו, שניראתה צחורה כל כך. היא היסתכלה עליו בסקרנות, בעניין בעודו רוכב. בעוד החלה ליצעוד חזרה למלון היא הסתכלה לאחור, כדי ליראות אם הוא עדיין שם. סוסו עמד במקום, צד גופו מופנה אליה, סוס גדול, יפהפה. רתמתו של הסוס מורכבת מעור בקר משובץ באבן חן כחולה שנחה על מצחו, מתחת לרעמתו השחורה. הרוכב הביט בה בעיניים אפורות-בהירות, בצבע הלבנה. הוא בחן אותה בסקרנות בעוד היא החזירה מבט חודר שחרג את גבול נשמתו. צרחה נישמעה מאחורי הנערה אדומת השער והיא הסתובבה במהירות חיננית לכוון האזעקה. שיערה האדמוני התנופף מאחוריה ונחת על גבה.  הרוכב קלט בזק של אבן חן כחולה על השרשרת התלויה על צווארה ונשימתו נעתקה. אזעקת שווא, ילדה קטנה שאחיה הגדול הבהיל אותה. עיניה הירוקות שבו לחפש שנית את הרוכב המיסתורי, אבל זה כבר לא היה שם.

 

בעודו מניף את עצמו מן האוכף, אנחה נפלטה מבין שפתיו חסרות הצבע. מגפיו פגעו ברצפת האסם עשוי האבן והניפו ענן קטן, עשוי מאבק, אל חלל החדר. קול ההתנצחות הדהד וסוסו נחר. הוא התיר את אבזמי הרתמה של סוסו והחליק את הרתמה בעדינות מעל ראש הסוס. הוא טפח על צווארו של הסוס הלבן ותלה את הרתמה העשוייה עור משומן על הוו התלוי על הקיר לצידו. הוא החליק את עצבעותיו ארוכות-הטפרים על העור השחור. ידו נעצרה על האבן הכחולה, זו שיקפה את פני הים והגלים והוא עצם את עיניו ולרגע יכל לשמוע את קול הצעדים על החול. "לעזעזל איתך!" התפרץ לפתע. הוא זרק את הרתמה באגרסיביות על הרצפה והסתובב אל סוסו בכעס. החיה נרתעה ועיניה נפקחו בפחד. הרוכב הוריד את האוכף מגב הסוס ושחרר את החיה לאחו. "מדוע הייתה חייבת היא לפגוש אותו שוב, במקום הזה, כל כך רחוק מן הבית?" הוא תהה לעצמו ויצא בסערה מהאסם, טורק את הדלתות הגדולות בחוזקה.



Here you are, my first piece in Hebrew in a few years. 

Cut me some slack, I have to use an on-screen keyboard and I find Hebrew very hard to describe.

I hope you like it, I worked very hard on it.

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